I go to work by lrt.So i'll be at the exact same lrt staion at the exact same time,standing at the exact same place every morning, yet taking different lrt.
I like everything to be under my control.It makes me feel secured.My mom told me once that 'you can get everything under your control so long as you're putting effort; but relationship is a total distinct creature. It's not something that you can control or predict no matter how hard you try to maintain it nor does it depends on how much effort you've been putting in. Relationship is about 2 different persons being together and if one of them is not taking it seriously, it will never work out the way you want it to be.'
My point is taking lrt is like being in a relationship.I can never control which lrt im taking everyday.Monday,it's my favourate lrt with KFC advertisement; Tuesday,it's a plain lrt; Wednesday, i missed my KFC lrt and i took Guardian's one; Thursday and Friday,i couldnt recall which lrt i was in.
1st time relationship, he's my perfect man but lack of element of trust between us; 2nd time, he's a total jerk but i trusted him so much; 3rd time, he's a sweet little dude but wrong timing. So, how would my 4th time relationship be like?will it be the right one or just a fling or a romantic one?Could it be a matured thinking man or a plain and boring man?
I could have just waited at the platform until my favourate train is here,only then i'll get on it.Alternative,i could have just sqeezed into the train eventhough it's so packed and crowded cause i have no extra time to be wasted on waiting.If the train is overly crowded and im almost suffocated,i can get down from it at the next station.
Which is the better option for me?Do i have an option afterall?You and i will never know what's waiting for us in front.A guy who i lost my way to him is like a train in the opposite lane which moving at the opposite direction of me.Even if i try to catch him by taking the train on my side,we will always be at the opposite lane eventually.
I hate waiting n yet i can't catch him up.So i guess the next train would be a better option,right?
Friday
Sprained Right Ankle.
I sprained my right ankle n it hurts.
This is something i hated the most.It reminds me of the incident happened 5 years ago where i had my kneecap surgery.That was a horrible experience.Laying on the bed for a month and walking with cluthes for 2 months.
And now,my ankle is still pain.I told Cheng tat i need a bf at this very moment n she said 'u shld go n see doctor.the doctor will be ur bf.'
Yeah,this is so not funny.Supposingly,im going to do some shopping wif Ally tmr n i have a lunch date with my ladies on sunday.
Pray hard to God,hope tat my ankle will be fine tmr.I've convinced n get myself used to being single very well all these while,and,im pretty happy with my life now.
Yet,this spraining thing made me so wanted a bf now,i need a bf to carry me and i hate this.
This is something i hated the most.It reminds me of the incident happened 5 years ago where i had my kneecap surgery.That was a horrible experience.Laying on the bed for a month and walking with cluthes for 2 months.
And now,my ankle is still pain.I told Cheng tat i need a bf at this very moment n she said 'u shld go n see doctor.the doctor will be ur bf.'
Yeah,this is so not funny.Supposingly,im going to do some shopping wif Ally tmr n i have a lunch date with my ladies on sunday.
Pray hard to God,hope tat my ankle will be fine tmr.I've convinced n get myself used to being single very well all these while,and,im pretty happy with my life now.
Yet,this spraining thing made me so wanted a bf now,i need a bf to carry me and i hate this.
Thursday
What kind of man am i looking for.
There's one question tat men n women like to ask: what kind of man/woman are u looking for?
What kind of man am i looking for?Hmm..i want a manfriend instead of a boyfriend.I want someone who knows how to enjoy life,someone who is smart,who is intelligent,who knows what he wants n what he is capable of.I want someone who understands love,who is loyal and caring.If possible,i want someone who is good looking,of course not the 'handsome' good looking type but he has to be my type.Oh yea,this is so prince charming and Mr Perfect.
It is always i want..i want..i want..But is it really possible to get what i want?To be realistic,what i want and what i can get is totally two different story.I can point out watever i want from a man in just a second but it's never enough even if i spend my whole life looking for one. Im not that stupid to think that i can really get all i want from a man.Nobody is perfect in the world.
Im aint perfect as well.So who the hell am i to request for such a perfect man.Plus,a perfect man like that is non-existance.So gals,wake up from all ur sweel little dreams.It's never gonna happen in real life.
Have u ever met someone,someone who doesnt fit all ur requirements n yet he touches ur heart and u have the butterflies in ur stomach.u're so wanted to get his texts or his calls,even if it's just simple text like how's ur day or have u taken ur dinner..bla bla bla,u'll be fucking happy as if u're in the heaven and starts interpreting his meaning like omg,he asks me have i taken my dinner,is he trying to ask me out for dinner?he shld be interested in me,rite?he texts me first.
And when u're out wif him,every little insignificant action of him drives u crazy.U think he's cute when he sneezes,he's so cool when he's not talking,he's so knowledgable even if he's just cocking around.What could i say,he's just too perfect for me.He's the one i've been looking for ages.His voice is so deadly sexy even when he got the flu.His smile makes my day,his call is my wake up coffee and he's my everything~~
So again,what kind of man am i looking for?Well,my answer would be: Im looking for someone who im willing to perfectise him for myself.
What kind of man am i looking for?Hmm..i want a manfriend instead of a boyfriend.I want someone who knows how to enjoy life,someone who is smart,who is intelligent,who knows what he wants n what he is capable of.I want someone who understands love,who is loyal and caring.If possible,i want someone who is good looking,of course not the 'handsome' good looking type but he has to be my type.Oh yea,this is so prince charming and Mr Perfect.
It is always i want..i want..i want..But is it really possible to get what i want?To be realistic,what i want and what i can get is totally two different story.I can point out watever i want from a man in just a second but it's never enough even if i spend my whole life looking for one. Im not that stupid to think that i can really get all i want from a man.Nobody is perfect in the world.
Im aint perfect as well.So who the hell am i to request for such a perfect man.Plus,a perfect man like that is non-existance.So gals,wake up from all ur sweel little dreams.It's never gonna happen in real life.
Have u ever met someone,someone who doesnt fit all ur requirements n yet he touches ur heart and u have the butterflies in ur stomach.u're so wanted to get his texts or his calls,even if it's just simple text like how's ur day or have u taken ur dinner..bla bla bla,u'll be fucking happy as if u're in the heaven and starts interpreting his meaning like omg,he asks me have i taken my dinner,is he trying to ask me out for dinner?he shld be interested in me,rite?he texts me first.
And when u're out wif him,every little insignificant action of him drives u crazy.U think he's cute when he sneezes,he's so cool when he's not talking,he's so knowledgable even if he's just cocking around.What could i say,he's just too perfect for me.He's the one i've been looking for ages.His voice is so deadly sexy even when he got the flu.His smile makes my day,his call is my wake up coffee and he's my everything~~
So again,what kind of man am i looking for?Well,my answer would be: Im looking for someone who im willing to perfectise him for myself.
Wednesday
Re:Is it too late to say goodbye?
One of my buddies decided to go UK for his studies suddenly.
It's lame to say i'm happy for him bla bla bla...cuz it's just too lame,buddies dont need to say those.
To be honest,im kinda sad for his leaving.He nvr mention bout his decision to go overseas until everything is settled.Just too sudden.We all dun even have time to farewell for him.
I realised tat i've been taking things for granted all these while.We used to hang out a lot,party a lot,cocking a lot..etc.When i was bored,he's there to entertain me.When i was being dumped,he's there to comfort me.When i was being bitchy,he's there to enjoy my show.When the new movie is on,he's there to company me.
Never thought of one day he's no longer there for me.The feeling is same like when i broke up wif my ex but the difference is im not heartbroken.Either way,it sucks.
Anyway,all the best to him.Hope tat he can hook up wif some hot blondies there n bring back some sexy guys for me.
It's lame to say i'm happy for him bla bla bla...cuz it's just too lame,buddies dont need to say those.
To be honest,im kinda sad for his leaving.He nvr mention bout his decision to go overseas until everything is settled.Just too sudden.We all dun even have time to farewell for him.
I realised tat i've been taking things for granted all these while.We used to hang out a lot,party a lot,cocking a lot..etc.When i was bored,he's there to entertain me.When i was being dumped,he's there to comfort me.When i was being bitchy,he's there to enjoy my show.When the new movie is on,he's there to company me.
Never thought of one day he's no longer there for me.The feeling is same like when i broke up wif my ex but the difference is im not heartbroken.Either way,it sucks.
Anyway,all the best to him.Hope tat he can hook up wif some hot blondies there n bring back some sexy guys for me.
Monday
Re: S Moment.
It's been sometimes since my last blog.I almost forgotten tat i was once a 'blogger'.
Life after exam aint as interesting as i expected.Nothing extraordinary happens.I've been planning a lot during my exam like i gonna party gao gao after exam,i wanted to be a player,i gonna shop till my pants drops,sleep for at least 12 hours a day...bla bla bla.
Well,i guess im never a good planner afterall.None of my plans works apart from the shopping part.But i did hv some good times hanging around with my frens,my housemates n my family.Of course,to make myself feel better,i find myself good reasons for my failures.
1. I didnt get to be the party animal.Hmm...i think im too old to do all the party thingy.
2. I fail to be a player.Well,this is mission impossible for me cuz im scared of karma and i cant sleep around.Also,two timing sucks.
3. Be a sleeping beauty.Okay,1st of all,im not a beauty.so this aint workable anyway.2ndly,sleep too much makes me dizzy.
4. Others.since the 1st three biggest missions failed miserably,no point to move on to my other tiny little plans.
Though im a loser so to speak,still,there're 'achievements' during my holidays:
1. im gaining n i got a lil tummy now.fucked.
2. Miss pimples came n pay me a visit.i mean i dun mind saying hi to them but pls,dun lar take vacation here.
3. i get to bitch around.yea~
Conclusion: another boring holidays for me.And,im fucking nervous now.Result gonna release soon.i know im gonna fail n yet,im worried.Pray hard* Amen.
Life after exam aint as interesting as i expected.Nothing extraordinary happens.I've been planning a lot during my exam like i gonna party gao gao after exam,i wanted to be a player,i gonna shop till my pants drops,sleep for at least 12 hours a day...bla bla bla.
Well,i guess im never a good planner afterall.None of my plans works apart from the shopping part.But i did hv some good times hanging around with my frens,my housemates n my family.Of course,to make myself feel better,i find myself good reasons for my failures.
1. I didnt get to be the party animal.Hmm...i think im too old to do all the party thingy.
2. I fail to be a player.Well,this is mission impossible for me cuz im scared of karma and i cant sleep around.Also,two timing sucks.
3. Be a sleeping beauty.Okay,1st of all,im not a beauty.so this aint workable anyway.2ndly,sleep too much makes me dizzy.
4. Others.since the 1st three biggest missions failed miserably,no point to move on to my other tiny little plans.
Though im a loser so to speak,still,there're 'achievements' during my holidays:
1. im gaining n i got a lil tummy now.fucked.
2. Miss pimples came n pay me a visit.i mean i dun mind saying hi to them but pls,dun lar take vacation here.
3. i get to bitch around.yea~
Conclusion: another boring holidays for me.And,im fucking nervous now.Result gonna release soon.i know im gonna fail n yet,im worried.Pray hard* Amen.
Wednesday
Messier than mere mess.
CLP exam is just around the corner.This is the one exam tat i totally hv no confident wif it at all.It's the 1st time i ever think of not to sit for the exam.The pressure is just too much for me,just too much lar.
Except those who take CLP,i dun think other ppl can actually understand how tough this exam is.Whenever they ask me 'when is ur exam?' n i answer 'mid-july.' Gosh,i hate to look at their expression which show 'oh~~u still plenty of time to prepare it,it's just june only..relax my dear'
Urgh,so feel like punching on their face.Wif the 9 subjects in 5 papers,they wldnt know how much clp students hv to study n memorise especially when u cant bring in certains statutes whuch u got no choice but to memorise all the rules n sections using ur tat tiny useless overloaded brain.
I just dun get it.Wat's the rationale of prohibiting us to bring the statute into the exam hall?Why dun the exminers come n sit for the exam themselves n see if they can handle tat much of stuffs in one time.Yayaya,u might hv passed urs 20 years ago which back then,not tat much of cases,amendments,judgements to study.
I really hate exam to the maximum.I dun like the way of exam we're hving here.So wat if we can really remember everything formt he books n split in in the exam?Does it mean we can do well in practice when we come out to work?
Judging how well a person is from the exam is just not right.U can do well in ur exam doesnt u do perform well in ur work next time.
This fucking CLP is just ruining my life basically.I cldnt rmb a single piece of shit tat i've studied at all when i shift from one subject to another.Damn it,i just fucked up in everything..my studies,my r'ship,my emotion bla bla bla....nth is right for me.
I think im too old to study edi.Blek..exam,u make me so feel like getting married now!
Except those who take CLP,i dun think other ppl can actually understand how tough this exam is.Whenever they ask me 'when is ur exam?' n i answer 'mid-july.' Gosh,i hate to look at their expression which show 'oh~~u still plenty of time to prepare it,it's just june only..relax my dear'
Urgh,so feel like punching on their face.Wif the 9 subjects in 5 papers,they wldnt know how much clp students hv to study n memorise especially when u cant bring in certains statutes whuch u got no choice but to memorise all the rules n sections using ur tat tiny useless overloaded brain.
I just dun get it.Wat's the rationale of prohibiting us to bring the statute into the exam hall?Why dun the exminers come n sit for the exam themselves n see if they can handle tat much of stuffs in one time.Yayaya,u might hv passed urs 20 years ago which back then,not tat much of cases,amendments,judgements to study.
I really hate exam to the maximum.I dun like the way of exam we're hving here.So wat if we can really remember everything formt he books n split in in the exam?Does it mean we can do well in practice when we come out to work?
Judging how well a person is from the exam is just not right.U can do well in ur exam doesnt u do perform well in ur work next time.
This fucking CLP is just ruining my life basically.I cldnt rmb a single piece of shit tat i've studied at all when i shift from one subject to another.Damn it,i just fucked up in everything..my studies,my r'ship,my emotion bla bla bla....nth is right for me.
I think im too old to study edi.Blek..exam,u make me so feel like getting married now!
Thursday
A MESS!
The world is getting weird.There's more n more guys out there who realise tat they're physically n mentally attracted by guys instead of gals(same goes to gals).Well,i hv no comment on the increasing number of L since there're too many gals now.Wif the reduction in number of gals,it means im hving less competitors(kakaka).
But im definitely not impressed wif the fact tat more n more gays in our society today.I mean pls lar,it's well known tat the number of gals is way more than guys in the world.So,wif more gays,it means less real men for us to pick(err..it shld be them picking us).
Of course,i hv no offend on the gays cuz i perrsonally think tat they're so cute.It's good to hv gay frens cuz i can be as close as i want wif them which makes me easier to eat their taufu >@<. Also,they can give u all the useful fashion's ideas n opinions.It helps actually.
And,i found out tat most of the gays hv a really delicious body(yummy yummy~).Even if they dun hv the 6 pax like David Beckham,at least still got 4 pax which is much much better than the normal guys who normally hv a melted chocolate or some even carrying a pumpkin wif them.The worse is tat those normal guys always giving u the lame excuses like 'do u know how hard to maintain a tummy like this?U see,u can lay on my tummy when there's not enuf pillow(which hardly happen).Im afraid tat i'll look so gay if im too muscular (hello~problem is u're no where near to muscular,there's no muscle on u anyway!).....*%#$...'
However,i hv to say tat i dun really like seeing more n more gays out there though they're better choice to be fren wif.Let's hv a hypothetical calculation: out of 100% of guys in m'sia,25% of them r gay(it's sad to say tat).So still left 75% of guys for gals.Roughly 20% of them are taken,30% get married,20% underaged.It means we still hv 5% of guys to choose.
But out of tat particular 5%,we gonna deduct those womanisers,those who r still struggling whether to be gay or not,those who r not our cup of tea or those who wont take us as their cup of tea, and those went overseas.How much do we left after all?Possibly 0.5%.
Even if we're fortunate enuf to get one out of tat tiny little 0.5%,there's no guaranty tat we're meant for each other or we will work out.Let's presume tat we do work out somehow,is it for temporary or long term?How sure r we to say tat we wont hv a secong thought through out the relationship?
Then,things getting worse n shit happens!Boom,those desperate women(i think im going to be one of them or maybe i am now) start hving affair wif married men or being a third party in others' relationship.Some who dun hv the guts to screw up ppl's r'ship will start blaming God for being unfair,get themselves drunk everynite or maybe try to persuade themselves to sleep earlier in order to overcome their loneliness or yeah,be an ironlady.
My conclusion: why dun those gays turn straight n give us a chance to prove to them tat gals can give them wat they wants?I think this is the only solution b4 we can wait till all the boys turn to men n all my competitors turn to L(joking).
But im definitely not impressed wif the fact tat more n more gays in our society today.I mean pls lar,it's well known tat the number of gals is way more than guys in the world.So,wif more gays,it means less real men for us to pick(err..it shld be them picking us).
Of course,i hv no offend on the gays cuz i perrsonally think tat they're so cute.It's good to hv gay frens cuz i can be as close as i want wif them which makes me easier to eat their taufu >@<. Also,they can give u all the useful fashion's ideas n opinions.It helps actually.
And,i found out tat most of the gays hv a really delicious body(yummy yummy~).Even if they dun hv the 6 pax like David Beckham,at least still got 4 pax which is much much better than the normal guys who normally hv a melted chocolate or some even carrying a pumpkin wif them.The worse is tat those normal guys always giving u the lame excuses like 'do u know how hard to maintain a tummy like this?U see,u can lay on my tummy when there's not enuf pillow(which hardly happen).Im afraid tat i'll look so gay if im too muscular (hello~problem is u're no where near to muscular,there's no muscle on u anyway!).....*%#$...'
However,i hv to say tat i dun really like seeing more n more gays out there though they're better choice to be fren wif.Let's hv a hypothetical calculation: out of 100% of guys in m'sia,25% of them r gay(it's sad to say tat).So still left 75% of guys for gals.Roughly 20% of them are taken,30% get married,20% underaged.It means we still hv 5% of guys to choose.
But out of tat particular 5%,we gonna deduct those womanisers,those who r still struggling whether to be gay or not,those who r not our cup of tea or those who wont take us as their cup of tea, and those went overseas.How much do we left after all?Possibly 0.5%.
Even if we're fortunate enuf to get one out of tat tiny little 0.5%,there's no guaranty tat we're meant for each other or we will work out.Let's presume tat we do work out somehow,is it for temporary or long term?How sure r we to say tat we wont hv a secong thought through out the relationship?
Then,things getting worse n shit happens!Boom,those desperate women(i think im going to be one of them or maybe i am now) start hving affair wif married men or being a third party in others' relationship.Some who dun hv the guts to screw up ppl's r'ship will start blaming God for being unfair,get themselves drunk everynite or maybe try to persuade themselves to sleep earlier in order to overcome their loneliness or yeah,be an ironlady.
My conclusion: why dun those gays turn straight n give us a chance to prove to them tat gals can give them wat they wants?I think this is the only solution b4 we can wait till all the boys turn to men n all my competitors turn to L(joking).
I'm not ready to be in a relationship
This is one of my older blogs(copy n paste from my another blog^.^)
Valentine's day is around the corner.Everyone seems to be excited about it.Well,to be honest,i don't really like all these celebrations.Valentine's day to me,is created to remind people that they're still a couple,still having each other or at least having each other at this very day.How lovely is that with all the red roses,romantic candle light dinner,presents from each other,big fat kisses..
Sounds like im being sarcastic huh?Of course i admit that im kinda jealous with those couples in a way.Who doesn't want to be in love?Who doesn't want to have someone in their life?Oh yeah,this reminds me of a conversation between me n a guy friend of mine few days back.Let's named him P.
P: I don't want to be in any relationship right now.Prefer to stay single.
Me: Why? Won't u feel bored n loney?i mean mentally vulnerable?
P: Err..nope.
I was wondering why guys like to make such statement of 'i don't want or not ready to be in any relationship right now'.To me,it means 'i'm sorry but u're ain't my cup of tea.I don't want to be in relationship with u* I mean u'.They are just putting it in a nicer way or at least they think that that's a nicer way to put it.
Franky speaking, this is lame and it doesn't make them any way better.Wouldn't it be better to say 'i prefer us to be friend' or 'i just want to be friend with u'. Hello, unless the gal is a dumbass, she will get the obvious hidden meaning of u..duhh~
What's the point of cutting out the possibility that u might meet ur dream girl the next second which u're so wanted to be in relationship with her?Isn't that stupid ?Of course,the same goes to girls as well cause girls are doing exactly the same so far as i'm concerned.I think it hurts more if i know the guy that i confessed to is with another girl few days later after my confession.Yeah,this is the so called 'i'm not ready to be in any relationship'.Urgh..
Better be honest instead of creating a lame excuse.It isn't that hard to be frank sometimes anyway,right?Remember,the more u try to be nice, the more u llok like a faker.
So,stop telling all those bullshit which made urself look like an asshole of the century.
Valentine's day is around the corner.Everyone seems to be excited about it.Well,to be honest,i don't really like all these celebrations.Valentine's day to me,is created to remind people that they're still a couple,still having each other or at least having each other at this very day.How lovely is that with all the red roses,romantic candle light dinner,presents from each other,big fat kisses..
Sounds like im being sarcastic huh?Of course i admit that im kinda jealous with those couples in a way.Who doesn't want to be in love?Who doesn't want to have someone in their life?Oh yeah,this reminds me of a conversation between me n a guy friend of mine few days back.Let's named him P.
P: I don't want to be in any relationship right now.Prefer to stay single.
Me: Why? Won't u feel bored n loney?i mean mentally vulnerable?
P: Err..nope.
I was wondering why guys like to make such statement of 'i don't want or not ready to be in any relationship right now'.To me,it means 'i'm sorry but u're ain't my cup of tea.I don't want to be in relationship with u* I mean u'.They are just putting it in a nicer way or at least they think that that's a nicer way to put it.
Franky speaking, this is lame and it doesn't make them any way better.Wouldn't it be better to say 'i prefer us to be friend' or 'i just want to be friend with u'. Hello, unless the gal is a dumbass, she will get the obvious hidden meaning of u..duhh~
What's the point of cutting out the possibility that u might meet ur dream girl the next second which u're so wanted to be in relationship with her?Isn't that stupid ?Of course,the same goes to girls as well cause girls are doing exactly the same so far as i'm concerned.I think it hurts more if i know the guy that i confessed to is with another girl few days later after my confession.Yeah,this is the so called 'i'm not ready to be in any relationship'.Urgh..
Better be honest instead of creating a lame excuse.It isn't that hard to be frank sometimes anyway,right?Remember,the more u try to be nice, the more u llok like a faker.
So,stop telling all those bullshit which made urself look like an asshole of the century.
Tuesday
Third Party
It's been a while since my last blog.Was chatting wif my babe,cheng last nite on msn.We were discussing bout how to make ourselves happier n suggesting some dumb ideas.
Out of the sudden,cheng said tat she wanna hv an affair.(Btw,she's still single n available.Most importantly,she's hot!)Affair...hmm,i've tot of tat too last year some times during my long holiday.
To me,hving an affair by cheating on my bf isnt so cool.Of course,it sucks if my bf is hving an affair.But to be someone's affair,it sounds pretty interesting.
Yet,gonna depends on wat type of third party u wanna be or u can be.If the guy im hving affair wif fall for me deeply,hahaha...my day has come~~it would definitely be fucking excited n fun.
I can call him purposely even if i know he's wif his gf at tat time n the conversation would be as follow:
Me: Baby,wat r u doing?
Him: Err..im kind of busy rite now.
Me: i know but i just want to hear ur voice.I miss u so much.
Him: Well,can i call u back later?(i knew it fort he fact that his f is just right besides him.)
Me: Ohh..,not even for 5 mins?Oh ya, im a third party.Anyway,sorry for calling u.Enjoy urself.
Him:........come on,i..(du~~du~~du~~)
Wow..how would it feel like if i could just hang up the phone like tat?And,since he likes me so much,he would surely find some reasonable n acceptable excuses to send his gf home earlier so tat he can come n comfort me.(yeah yeah yeah~ 1:0 for round 1)
But things would be totally diferrent if the guy im hving affair wif is just taking me as one of his affairs n me on the other hand is stupid enuf to think tat he really likes me n tat's y he wants me to be the third party.
I'll be in a situation where i dun even hv a chance to call him whenever i want to cuz b4 i could say 'hello',he will hang up the call n switch off the hp.The consequences would be tat he wont call me or sms me or come n find me for the next few days.It's the so called 'punishment' for my immatured behaviour.
Hmm..third party,though it sounds cool but it aint rocks enuf.Too much can n cannot which made life more complicated n tougher.It might be fun in the beginning but it's definitely a mess in the end.Someone gonna get hurt no matter how.
My conclusion:It would be better to just cocking wif cheng on msn than to really be someone's third party.I believe in karma,wat comes around goes around.i dun want to hv a third party in my relationship,i dun want to be the gf besides who asks the question of 'who's on the phone?'...a big 'NO' to tat.Tat's just way too shitty.No sharing in my relationship,it's better to be selfish n yes,im fucking selfish.
P/s: A third party aint the loser.The real loser is the one who's hving a third party.
Additional note:cheng,my babe wants me to make an apology here cuz i forgot to mention tat she didnt really mean to hv an affair,just say it for fun.She's definitely not a loser,trust me.Btw,if anyone interested in her,contact me*(once again,she is fucking hot,hotter than chilli :P)
Out of the sudden,cheng said tat she wanna hv an affair.(Btw,she's still single n available.Most importantly,she's hot!)Affair...hmm,i've tot of tat too last year some times during my long holiday.
To me,hving an affair by cheating on my bf isnt so cool.Of course,it sucks if my bf is hving an affair.But to be someone's affair,it sounds pretty interesting.
Yet,gonna depends on wat type of third party u wanna be or u can be.If the guy im hving affair wif fall for me deeply,hahaha...my day has come~~it would definitely be fucking excited n fun.
I can call him purposely even if i know he's wif his gf at tat time n the conversation would be as follow:
Me: Baby,wat r u doing?
Him: Err..im kind of busy rite now.
Me: i know but i just want to hear ur voice.I miss u so much.
Him: Well,can i call u back later?(i knew it fort he fact that his f is just right besides him.)
Me: Ohh..,not even for 5 mins?Oh ya, im a third party.Anyway,sorry for calling u.Enjoy urself.
Him:........come on,i..(du~~du~~du~~)
Wow..how would it feel like if i could just hang up the phone like tat?And,since he likes me so much,he would surely find some reasonable n acceptable excuses to send his gf home earlier so tat he can come n comfort me.(yeah yeah yeah~ 1:0 for round 1)
But things would be totally diferrent if the guy im hving affair wif is just taking me as one of his affairs n me on the other hand is stupid enuf to think tat he really likes me n tat's y he wants me to be the third party.
I'll be in a situation where i dun even hv a chance to call him whenever i want to cuz b4 i could say 'hello',he will hang up the call n switch off the hp.The consequences would be tat he wont call me or sms me or come n find me for the next few days.It's the so called 'punishment' for my immatured behaviour.
Hmm..third party,though it sounds cool but it aint rocks enuf.Too much can n cannot which made life more complicated n tougher.It might be fun in the beginning but it's definitely a mess in the end.Someone gonna get hurt no matter how.
My conclusion:It would be better to just cocking wif cheng on msn than to really be someone's third party.I believe in karma,wat comes around goes around.i dun want to hv a third party in my relationship,i dun want to be the gf besides who asks the question of 'who's on the phone?'...a big 'NO' to tat.Tat's just way too shitty.No sharing in my relationship,it's better to be selfish n yes,im fucking selfish.
P/s: A third party aint the loser.The real loser is the one who's hving a third party.
Additional note:cheng,my babe wants me to make an apology here cuz i forgot to mention tat she didnt really mean to hv an affair,just say it for fun.She's definitely not a loser,trust me.Btw,if anyone interested in her,contact me*(once again,she is fucking hot,hotter than chilli :P)
Age-24
The biggest enemy of a gal(aka lady) is aging.This is perfectly applying on my situation right now.Gosh,i never tot that i gonna be 24 one day.What i've done for my past few years?Err..of course my biggest n most noticeable achievement is tat i've got my LLB( finally).
When i was in secondary school,i always plan to get married at the age of 25,hv my 1st child at 27..(typical little gal's so called plan*).And yes,im 24 now n i am no where near to my 'plan'.Well,thank God for tat cuz it did happen in the way i planned,i'll regret definitely right after i registered.
There're so many fun stuffs out there, so many things awaiting for me to do.If i would ever get married so early,im pretty sure i'll lose lots of things in my life.But everything has 2 sides,just the matter of which side u're picking..
Back the the age thingy,i realise tat age really has a great impact on me.1stly,i get tired easily.Basically,i look sleepy all the time except the time when i shops n gossiping.So,it would be quite unfair to blame it on age,kakaka..2ndly,i found little wrinkles on my face when im smiling.Hmm..shdnt been laughing so often which i know it's extremely hard.Asking me not to laugh is like asking me not to talk(i.e impossible).
3rdly,i got allergic wif most of the seafood now which didnt happen at all last time.The hardest part is tat i can no longer take my favourate octopus n prawn anymore unless im willing to take the risk of having allergic all over my face n body.Though im not sure of the real reason for such happening,i think aging playing the biggest part for it lar.
4thly,i need to think twice b4 i decided to do smth.This have a lot to do wif responsibilities.Im an adult ady n so i hv to be responsible for everything i've said n done.I can no longer hv my parents as my back up n i cant rely on my frens tat much as i did back then.I gonna be more considerable n can no longer cry in front of them.Everyone has their own things to do n own problems to settle.So,wat i've got rite now is myself.
5thly,i gonna be more matured in dealing wif ppl n my own emotion.even if i know someone is bad-mouthing bout me,the best thing to do is doing nth at all,pretending like i know nth.Trust me,it works effectively.Frens kept criticising me tat im too childish for my age.Sometimes,being matured is notbout how matured u r to others,is how matured u r in dealing wif poblems.
My theory is 'U dont need to tell other how much u know or how great u r,all u need to do is to ask when u dont know n nvr portray urself to be smart when u r not'.
Finally,as usual..my stuff is nvr far from love.Being 24,i think it's time to settle down,looking for a stable relationship.im always heading for the excitement n choosing the one i want instead of the one i need.I swear tat i was very serious for my past 3 times relationship though none of them actually work out.So,maybe it's time to look for wat i need.I hate ppl telling me tat im not the type of gal for ppl who want for a long term relationship.Talking crap.
Urgh,im 24.Being 24 isnt tat bad afterall.Yeah,im happy im 24...
P/s: self-convincing.
When i was in secondary school,i always plan to get married at the age of 25,hv my 1st child at 27..(typical little gal's so called plan*).And yes,im 24 now n i am no where near to my 'plan'.Well,thank God for tat cuz it did happen in the way i planned,i'll regret definitely right after i registered.
There're so many fun stuffs out there, so many things awaiting for me to do.If i would ever get married so early,im pretty sure i'll lose lots of things in my life.But everything has 2 sides,just the matter of which side u're picking..
Back the the age thingy,i realise tat age really has a great impact on me.1stly,i get tired easily.Basically,i look sleepy all the time except the time when i shops n gossiping.So,it would be quite unfair to blame it on age,kakaka..2ndly,i found little wrinkles on my face when im smiling.Hmm..shdnt been laughing so often which i know it's extremely hard.Asking me not to laugh is like asking me not to talk(i.e impossible).
3rdly,i got allergic wif most of the seafood now which didnt happen at all last time.The hardest part is tat i can no longer take my favourate octopus n prawn anymore unless im willing to take the risk of having allergic all over my face n body.Though im not sure of the real reason for such happening,i think aging playing the biggest part for it lar.
4thly,i need to think twice b4 i decided to do smth.This have a lot to do wif responsibilities.Im an adult ady n so i hv to be responsible for everything i've said n done.I can no longer hv my parents as my back up n i cant rely on my frens tat much as i did back then.I gonna be more considerable n can no longer cry in front of them.Everyone has their own things to do n own problems to settle.So,wat i've got rite now is myself.
5thly,i gonna be more matured in dealing wif ppl n my own emotion.even if i know someone is bad-mouthing bout me,the best thing to do is doing nth at all,pretending like i know nth.Trust me,it works effectively.Frens kept criticising me tat im too childish for my age.Sometimes,being matured is notbout how matured u r to others,is how matured u r in dealing wif poblems.
My theory is 'U dont need to tell other how much u know or how great u r,all u need to do is to ask when u dont know n nvr portray urself to be smart when u r not'.
Finally,as usual..my stuff is nvr far from love.Being 24,i think it's time to settle down,looking for a stable relationship.im always heading for the excitement n choosing the one i want instead of the one i need.I swear tat i was very serious for my past 3 times relationship though none of them actually work out.So,maybe it's time to look for wat i need.I hate ppl telling me tat im not the type of gal for ppl who want for a long term relationship.Talking crap.
Urgh,im 24.Being 24 isnt tat bad afterall.Yeah,im happy im 24...
P/s: self-convincing.
Sunday
Tragedy
Was reading the news bout chris brown n rihanna.Kinda shocking.My fren told me tat there's report saying tat rihanna's face was disfigured n tat's y she didnt appear in the public after tat incident.So,chris brown is now facing the charge of assault with the punishment of imprisonment up to max 9 years.
Hmm..is there really nothing better for rich people like them who own almost everything they want to do instead of involving themselves in the crime?Being hot-tempered is one thing but to hurt someone is another thing,what more if the victim is someone close to u.
I really tot that chris brown n rihanna would make a great couple,who knows things getting this bad btw them.From wat i've heard,this whole thing started wif jealousy of rihanna after she read a flirting msg from chris' hp which inviting him for sex.
Well,it's sensible for rihanna to be mad about this matter.Assuming tat this isnt the 1st time chris got such msg n he actually accepting the offer previously,this means tat rihanna is actually sharing a guy wif so many different gals at the same time which to me is damn disgusting(blek..).
The worst is tat rihanna is not any normal gal out there.She's one of the hottest singers in US n got thousands of guys or even more than tat are willing to die for her (perhaps).So it is understandable of her act threwing the car key out of the car right after she read the msg.If i were her,i would be damn ashamed of picking such guy as my bf while i could hv a better choice.So wat if he's a famous singer?Doesnt give him 'lawful' reason to flirt wif other gals.
Once again, time to bring out sophia's theory: 'If u think im not good enough or u think u deserve for a better one,why are u chosing me as ur gf to begin wif?Might as well u dump me 1st n then go n flirt or sleep wif as many gals as u like n nobody will say anything bout u.'
So,either u appreciate me as ur gf or continue ur flirting business without me.U cant eat the cherry n the cake at the same time.
P/s:self-appreciation.
Hmm..is there really nothing better for rich people like them who own almost everything they want to do instead of involving themselves in the crime?Being hot-tempered is one thing but to hurt someone is another thing,what more if the victim is someone close to u.
I really tot that chris brown n rihanna would make a great couple,who knows things getting this bad btw them.From wat i've heard,this whole thing started wif jealousy of rihanna after she read a flirting msg from chris' hp which inviting him for sex.
Well,it's sensible for rihanna to be mad about this matter.Assuming tat this isnt the 1st time chris got such msg n he actually accepting the offer previously,this means tat rihanna is actually sharing a guy wif so many different gals at the same time which to me is damn disgusting(blek..).
The worst is tat rihanna is not any normal gal out there.She's one of the hottest singers in US n got thousands of guys or even more than tat are willing to die for her (perhaps).So it is understandable of her act threwing the car key out of the car right after she read the msg.If i were her,i would be damn ashamed of picking such guy as my bf while i could hv a better choice.So wat if he's a famous singer?Doesnt give him 'lawful' reason to flirt wif other gals.
Once again, time to bring out sophia's theory: 'If u think im not good enough or u think u deserve for a better one,why are u chosing me as ur gf to begin wif?Might as well u dump me 1st n then go n flirt or sleep wif as many gals as u like n nobody will say anything bout u.'
So,either u appreciate me as ur gf or continue ur flirting business without me.U cant eat the cherry n the cake at the same time.
P/s:self-appreciation.
Must Love Dogs
Was watching a movie named 'Must Love dogs' on 8tv last nite.It's about a little love story of a woman finding her love 8 mths after her divorce.Some stmts in tat movie actually caught my attention.
1) The woman's sis asked the woman 'would u leave Kevin(her husband) if he nvr leave u?'.Woman looked in her sis's eye for a while n said 'No.'
2) A lady told the woman 'If u really love someone,u wont care of anything even if u hv to compete wif so many women.'
3) The woman's dad said to the man 'to love is better than lost.'
4 ) Woman asked her dad 'how can u handle so many women at the same time?Which one is ur choice?' Her dad answered her 'Im not finding one cuz i've already found my love n tat's ur mom.Those women..just to pass my life.'
5) Woman said to her sis 'Omg,i've slept wif a guy who is not my husband.'
6) A young boy told a lady,aged 61'everyone is finding for their love one all their life n i found one when im 15'. Lady shouted 'u told me u're 17!' Boy answered ' i tot u will take me seriously if im elder'.Lady remained silent for a while n said 'well,i lie to u.im...im 43,not 41'.
Hmm...just sharing some interesting conversations in the movie n is a watchable movie anyway.
P/s: i've watched valkyrie edi.Nice movie.
1) The woman's sis asked the woman 'would u leave Kevin(her husband) if he nvr leave u?'.Woman looked in her sis's eye for a while n said 'No.'
2) A lady told the woman 'If u really love someone,u wont care of anything even if u hv to compete wif so many women.'
3) The woman's dad said to the man 'to love is better than lost.'
4 ) Woman asked her dad 'how can u handle so many women at the same time?Which one is ur choice?' Her dad answered her 'Im not finding one cuz i've already found my love n tat's ur mom.Those women..just to pass my life.'
5) Woman said to her sis 'Omg,i've slept wif a guy who is not my husband.'
6) A young boy told a lady,aged 61'everyone is finding for their love one all their life n i found one when im 15'. Lady shouted 'u told me u're 17!' Boy answered ' i tot u will take me seriously if im elder'.Lady remained silent for a while n said 'well,i lie to u.im...im 43,not 41'.
Hmm...just sharing some interesting conversations in the movie n is a watchable movie anyway.
P/s: i've watched valkyrie edi.Nice movie.
Should i or shouldnt i introduce my gals to him?
Was reading an article this moning while hving my breakfast.It's about a conversation btw few gals,sharing their views of what type of gals they would nvr introduce to their bfs.Kind of interesting.
Their conclusion is tat they would nvr ever introduce the very girlish type of gal to their bfs,like forever nvr.Hmm..how girlish is girlish meant to be?To them,read,it means aso called shy and protective gal,n most importantly,there's no rejection in her dictionary.
Classic example of her self-explanation: 'oh,i..i didnt mean to sms wif ur bf but to be polite,i shld have texted him when i reached home just to let him know that im home safely,rite?err...i didnt mean to call ur bf but i was so panic tat time n i really dunno who else to find.Then i suddenly remember tat ur bf is good in handling such matter,tat's y i call him....bla bla bla'
Well,this article does make sense to me.So..while drinking my coffee,i started to think what kind of gals that i wouldnt introduce to my bf ( if i hv one).
Err..not the sexy type,not the innocent type,not the so called girlish type,not the pretty type,not the naughty type,not the playful tpye,not the gal next door type....&*(%^^&%^
Gosh,guess i couldnt introduce any gals to my bf cuz basically i dun wanna let him go near any gals.Selfish to the extreme.But wat if he goes n knows those gals himself?Wat if his frens introduce those kinds of gals to him?i can't follow at the back of him,spying him all the time just in case he tries to flirt wif one of gals.
Guess all i can do is to hv faith on him,trust him since he's my bf,rite?Try to imagine if he's doing the same thing to me,checking my hp,controlling me on wat kind of frens im allowed to hang out,stick wif me wherever i go....oh man,tat's scary!
Conclusion:kakaka..time for sophia's theory ( damn long time didnt say this).My theory is 'trust ur bf,of course not asking u to trust 100% (45.67% is more than enuf) n be confident with urself.If he really cheated on u,well..tough luck,he's going to lose the best gal he ever had in his life.'
Their conclusion is tat they would nvr ever introduce the very girlish type of gal to their bfs,like forever nvr.Hmm..how girlish is girlish meant to be?To them,read,it means aso called shy and protective gal,n most importantly,there's no rejection in her dictionary.
Classic example of her self-explanation: 'oh,i..i didnt mean to sms wif ur bf but to be polite,i shld have texted him when i reached home just to let him know that im home safely,rite?err...i didnt mean to call ur bf but i was so panic tat time n i really dunno who else to find.Then i suddenly remember tat ur bf is good in handling such matter,tat's y i call him....bla bla bla'
Well,this article does make sense to me.So..while drinking my coffee,i started to think what kind of gals that i wouldnt introduce to my bf ( if i hv one).
Err..not the sexy type,not the innocent type,not the so called girlish type,not the pretty type,not the naughty type,not the playful tpye,not the gal next door type....&*(%^^&%^
Gosh,guess i couldnt introduce any gals to my bf cuz basically i dun wanna let him go near any gals.Selfish to the extreme.But wat if he goes n knows those gals himself?Wat if his frens introduce those kinds of gals to him?i can't follow at the back of him,spying him all the time just in case he tries to flirt wif one of gals.
Guess all i can do is to hv faith on him,trust him since he's my bf,rite?Try to imagine if he's doing the same thing to me,checking my hp,controlling me on wat kind of frens im allowed to hang out,stick wif me wherever i go....oh man,tat's scary!
Conclusion:kakaka..time for sophia's theory ( damn long time didnt say this).My theory is 'trust ur bf,of course not asking u to trust 100% (45.67% is more than enuf) n be confident with urself.If he really cheated on u,well..tough luck,he's going to lose the best gal he ever had in his life.'
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